"I feel bad, like I'm interrupting your workout."

...Uh, yeah, moron. That's exactly what you're doing.

Yeah, so this guy got in the middle of my "Chelsea" this evening...twice. Because apparently he didn't understand my look of death at the 8-minute mark, he decided to do it again at the 23rd minute. (I was grateful that he was quicker that time but still annoyed.) For once, I was actually only using one machine and just enough floor space (against the wall, even) to do push-ups, and he had to choose my machine and space. Ugh. Such is the life of an I-want-to-but-can't-really-commit-quite-yet-so-I-just-try-to-mimic-CrossFit-as-best-I-can gym-goer, I guess. Make do without the proper equipment, then try your best to not confuse the crap out of everybody else in the gym. Ugh...what a life.

Alright, rant over.

I liked "Chelsea," but I think I would have liked her better and found her to be more of a challenge if not for the above two problems.

In other news, I applied for a new apartment today, so I should be moving into DC-proper in 29 days. Thrilling and a relief, for sure, to have it done...but I just can't be excited here because I'm still annoyed over said workout. Soooooo, I'll just give you the stats and be done with this post.

(Hope you enjoyed hearing me talk to myself, btw...)


**WOD**
A) Run 400m
B) "Chelsea" (modified): EMOM, 30 mins
(every minute, on the minute, perform a round)
-- 5 pull-ups (angle and equipment setup made these somewhat like ring rows)
-- 10 push-ups (knee)
-- 15 air squats
C) Stretch, stairs (5 floors - OMG, quads!), re-stretch
Completed: 31 sets, but with unintentional rests at 8 & 23 mins. Averaged around 40sec/set.

Screw it.

No, really. Screw this. This is stupid.

I'm not going to force myself to eat crap that, in turn, makes me feel like crap...just because I spent money how many months ago. Really, that makes no sense! In the words of my economics professor (who knew I actually learned something in that class?!), it's a "sunk cost." I spent the money. It's gone either way. I can't make up for it now. So I should move on and make the best choice for myself now, without regard for that. So that's what I'm doing.

The fridge and pantry are getting cleaned out this weekend, sans guilt. I feel just as guilty eating the crap as I do throwing it away, so out it goes. I'm having trouble finding a place to donate the stuff, so if I can find one by weekend's end, it'll go there...otherwise, it's hitting the trash bin. (It's a shame, really, with all the homelessness in DC, but I don't know what else to do...) Sayonara, brown rice!!

PS -- Did I also mention that I bought this shirt as a reward?
Why? Well...for finally being sensible!

**WOD**
-- TBD...gotta actually get some school stuff done for once.

As I Prepare to Throw Up...

...I will write this blog. I am so angry I could spit. And my mother taught me that young ladies do not spit. Well I'm no longer a young lady, and I'm going to spit on someone in particular. But before that, I think I am going to throw up because the knot in my stomach is so large.

Now, let me explain a little about myself. I do not usually get angry...not like this. But I am positively FURIOUS right now. You can mess with me all you want, but do NOT mess with my friends - especially not this one. I have never experienced so many emotions at once ever before in my life...which, I think, is why I am going to throw up. (You doubt me.)

My best friend is probably the best woman I have ever known, and I'll be damned if I wouldn't fight to the death for her. And if it's her and I against the person we're against...damn the world if we don't have the rage to win. I have never before wanted to seriously strangle someone.

She does not deserve this. She deserves the OPPOSITE of this. That, right there, is the best listener, counselor, encourager, teacher, advisor, and FRIEND I have ever had the privilege of knowing. And YOU will NOT take her down.

Please note - WE were once on good terms. And well before all of THIS happened, WE lost touch. Why? Because YOU are incapable of relating to people as PEOPLE. Yes, I am a student and a PERSON. WE are no longer on good terms and have not been for quite some time. YOU know why. And YOU should know BETTER.

But then again, you do not follow the usual ethical guidelines.

Why? I know not for sure, but my guess? You have no soul. That's right...I said it. Why? Because it's true. Only you could do such a terrible thing.

Oh, you WANTED to kick a person when they're down? Great job.

I'll help her back up...and take you down in the process.

Remember, I fight for EQUALITY, JUSTICE, PEACE, and what's RIGHT. I have for some time now, and I've got many on my side. Prepare for the fight of your life...it's on.








On second thought, I don't need to throw up anymore. I'll save the rage just start plotting. And then maybe one day you'll learn about EMPATHY, PEACE, and JUSTICE.

Gossip and Judgment

"It's our job to help, not to judge."

I heard this today, and then I got a text. I'll leave anonymous the content of the text and thus the identity of the texter, but it was...disappointing, at least. I thought we were past this point.

No, I did not tell you X piece of gossip. That was told to me, in confidence, months ago. And, when one of my friends (or anyone, for that matter) tells me something in confidence, I do not share that information. It was not for you to know; if it were, you would have been told.

As I told a friend recently:

...Leaving may be one of the hardest things I have had to do, but it will be so worth it when, one day, I can look back and say things in this world have changed because of what I have accomplished. I don't usually like to take credit for things like that, but I truly want to leave what one might term "a legacy." Then, I will know that I have made a difference. If the Girl Scouts taught me one thing, it was to leave a place better than when you came, and may that be so for the world. I will strive always to make the world less judgmental, more understanding, less selfish, more compassionate. All of us deserve that, and it will make us a better mankind. I only hope for that to happen in time for my dearest friends to benefit from it.

Do not judge my friends. Who are you to do so?! Things happen. People change. Life is unexpected, and sometimes I think that's the best part. Sometimes, circumstances are complex and even unusual, but that doesn't matter in the end. Just because things may not be what you imagine they should be does not mean they aren't very much supposed to be that way. You do not know the back story because maybe you aren't supposed to. I don't necessarily know why that is, but I do know this: It's not my place to encourage the gossip. It's my place to stop it.

Don't judge my friends. Support people, uplift them, love all. Maybe it's just me, but I think this world would be a much better place if we all did so.